Some of you may have seen this pic I posted yesterday on my personal page, but today was my first day back on my health wagon after a two week free-for-all of junk food with no exercise. And holy guacamole, by the way I felt this morning at 5 AM in the gym, you would’ve thought I was coming back after a two-YEAR hiatus rather than just two weeks. It was seriously SO HARD. I can’t believe how much my muscles could forget in such a short amount of time! I was literally dropping weights, slipping off of equipment, and stumbling through the exercises.
And it hasn’t been any easier in the food department. After years of intermittent fasting, I took a two week break that consisted of eating what I want, when I want. (NOTE: still only vegan food, of course. I mean, a girl’s gotta have standards, and even on my lowest day, I could never ever put a piece of meat or fish in my mouth after everything I’ve learned over the past several years. But potato chips, candy, cookies, cakes, muffins, & non-dairy chocolate? I may have gone a bit overboard.) So today I’ve felt about as good as a crack addict in rehab. All I can think about is food, and my stomach is growling like it won’t survive without its next hit.
I feel like I’m literally starting all over again. I gained the weight of a small child on my break, and I’m reminded for the 1000th time why I am so committed to clean eating….because it’s a TERRIBLE FEELING to be heavy, lethargic, and out of control. Food comas are such a tragic waste of time, the emotional roller coaster caused by toxic food is shocking, and food hangovers are a real, legit THING. No joke, even with 8 hours of sleep, I would wake up feeling tired, groggy and with huge bags under my eyes. Why? Because I put my body through a beating just by forcing it to digest all of the garbage I fed it the day before.
The only reason I have the ability to get through today, my first day back in the saddle, is because I know what’s waiting for me on the other side of my detox. That clean, euphoric feeling of GOOD NUTRITION and GOOD EXERCISE. It will take me a good two weeks to start to feel remotely normal again. So, of course the real question I have to ask myself is whether it’s worth it to slide so far backwards just for two weeks of letting my taste buds run my life. But for any of you who are working to “get clean” for the first time (LOL)…please take my word for it, and KEEP GOING!!! It’s soooooo worth it!!! Your body will thank you once you make it to the other side…I promise!!!
XO XO XO,