How Stubborn Are You?

I promised you a video today to recap my first week of going Cold Turkey on some new life policies.  However, I’m not quite ready to make a video yet.  I’m still living in the lesson too much to be able to properly assess it and share it.  But I can tell you this…it has been a test beyond my wildest imagination.  I NEVER guessed such “small changes” would be so challenging.  I’m talking full blown chaos.  How can it be??  It’s almost like every possible thing that could go wrong was waiting to test my commitment to this new level of excellence.

All I know is that I’ve learned enough along the way to recognize the madness as proof that some serious awesomeness MUST be waiting for me on the other side of this test, if I’m stubborn enough to keep going.  Because the roadblocks ALWAYS show up to eliminate the faint of heart.

Around 4:45 AM today I was really ready to throw in the towel.  I thought to myself, “It’s not even 5 AM on Monday…how can I survive the week like this?!”  I was literally two dominos from chunking it all and going back to bed.  But then I remembered…I’m not that girl.  I don’t quit when it gets tougher than I ever dreamed.  I may throw a short tantrum to myself and spend a few minutes rocking in the fetal position on my closet floor.  But then I will get back up, fix my makeup and remember my mission.  I might even make an appointment with myself to pout about it later, because I don’t have time for pity parties today.  Come to think of it…once I’m fully back to my senses, I’ll remember that I never have time for pity parties, because they don’t EVER take me closer to my finish line.   So, what do I do on days like today?  

Well my first thought often is to call my husband or a mentor and whine in their ear.  But where does that get me?  They won’t have magical answers, and I’ve learned that venting is TOTALLY counterproductive.  There’s definitely nothing wrong with bouncing ideas off of a trusted source, but there are some days when what’s really needed is the silence of introspection.  The answers are really deep within.  The question is if I will get quiet enough to hear it…and if I will be stubborn enough to stay above the line.  The line that separates surviving from thriving.  The line that separates mediocrity from excellence.  The invisible line that separates soaring with the eagles from clucking with the chickens.  Like a game of tug of war…there’s a line I just can’t cross if I want to stay in the game. So, I’ll take a deep breath and dive back in.  Back into my own personal war against mediocrity.

I will outlast the test and I will prove to myself that continued levels of excellence are attainable. Because it’s not a place we “arrive” at forever. There is no such thing as staying the same.  We’re either moving forward or backward.  It doesn’t matter the level, a rut is a rut.  Complacency might be ok for the rest of the world, but not for someone who is mission-driven and fueled by the fire of their dreams.

And the BIGGEST test is whether I can weather the storms with a smile.  With genuine joy & happiness, totally KNOWING that I CAN enjoy the ride and I WILL come out stronger on the other side…with the perspective that life is a game, I’m playing to win, and every obstacle is just part of the fun!  100% of my life was designed from Above for my highest good and the good of everyone involved. So bring it on baby…we’ll eat those obstacles like vitamins and laugh in the face of discomfort.  Growth is never comfortable.  But neither is giving up.  I can’t even imagine what that would be like.  Can you?  Ugh, what a gross feeling.  I honestly cannot imagine how sad it would be to quit.  So, let’s thank Heaven that we’re not wired that way and jump back in with new appreciation for the game…whatdya say?  We’ll start ugly, lean into the chaos, buckle in for the bumps, do our best to navigate, dig deep to innovate, and smile as we embrace the position as captain of our own ship. A captain doesn’t quit on the stormy days…she knows the forecast, and the sun always shines in the end. So, today looks like a great day to be stubborn, cuz not every day was meant to be sunny!  😉

XO,

Chaya